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Friday, 30 January 2015

My first video!

Took me a week to find the courage to show the world!
I needed to overcome something. I needed to start from somewhere. To do something, you need to START. it cant be perfect at the first try. but no doubt, you'll get better and better. Talking to a camera is hard. But i really wanted to try it, just to boost abit of confidence and have some fuuun! Also, some things are just easier to show on video! Anyway, how does @Faafirds do it so flawlessly!?

So this is a video of short reviews on some brands and why i decided to buy them. What drew me to buy them. Watching videos like this has certainly helped me in deciding to buy something or not, hope it helps you! 

I go by this philosophy that if i liked something and i am patient enough,
 if it goes on sale and it is still available, its meant to be. haha.


Before i filmed this, i went for a make up class, hence the full make up face. Also, i had to cut alot on the shoe part because the video was getting too long to a point that it might bore you!

So i cordially invite you to watch my mistakes, me mumbling my words, yada yada yada....








#guysdontwatchit #nokidding #noactuallywatchit


Next video will be a BEGINNERS make up tutorial done by a beginner. (me! whoooolllyyy beginner,beginner)  had some of my friends requesting this! Going to share tips i learned from mac! OR like a favourites video or something. Whatever that floats the boat!

Toodles! tell me whatcha think! Im going to go search for a cave now..............................





Wednesday, 28 January 2015

SS15 MOOD BOARD & my take on Miu Miu, Rochas, Bimba y Lola and more.

















Photos taken from google

Miu Miu
Apart from immensely adoring Miuccia Prada, because she has phd in social sciences and her balance of elegance with the unusual, i cant express enough how much i love Miumiu! Miumiu should be an actual verb because its a recognizable signature style. I could walk around KLCC, and spot someone and be like, that's so miumiu. Not necessarily meaning theyre wearing miumiu. SS15 i must say, did tone down a little, less funkier but still having a slight fizz. This was actually based on a dramatic tension look. I do feel the tension, like a hardworking woman, worn out, but maintaining composure. Like a form of a 18th century lady - the floral pattern, big buckles, housecoat silhouette, living in the 20th century.

Bottega Venetta
I am not fond of this brand, to dull for me and i dont get the bags. But they do take pride in their name. This was the first ever piece i actually felt an attraction towards Bottega Venetta. Its like a murky yellow paired with a dusky glittery vest (or whatever you call it). With that crisp oversized top contrasted with glitter. Darn thats good stuff.

Valentino
Valentino is Valentino. Never a dull moment.

Bimba y Lola
The pants. The pants. Those leather pants. Best leather pants ever invented. I might just work, earn money and invest in that. Because its worth it. The asymmetrical pattern is beyond, colour combo is on point, i mean imagine if they could go daring and used white instead of brown you'd be id rather buy ACNE STUDIO am i right or am i right? i could pair it with bright pink shoes and it'll still work or full glitter boots by YSL and it'll still work. Please be mine.

Rochas
Rochas is my new profound love. Been eyeing them for a year now till i could decide whether i genuinely like them, or was it just lovestruck by one piece - their shoes. I grew admiration and i like them more than Valentino now. Different is not the word, its like problematic. You need to see the whole SS15 line to kinda understand what nonsense im saying. This is how i would describe ROCHAS: its like the problematic part of common sense. Like how sometimes common sense or facts are crazy but you are unable to say its crazy because its literally common sense. Okay like, picture an all-PERFECT-everything-romantic-ladylike person, imagine she had an itching feeling to be girly, to drink milk straight from the carton, to listen to rap instead of classical, i just feel that Rochas enhanced that itch. He's listening to that tiny little voice at the back of her head and making them into designs that will sing out loud and proud.

Monday, 26 January 2015

Hatta Dolmat Casting Call.

There was an ad on Hatta's instagram about a casting call and i missed the deadline for submission. This was because i was facing one of the most important exams of my life. It completely slipped my mind.

They shortlisted already and a day before the casting call, there was an announcement saying that they are opening to all between 4pm-6pm.

I didn't know whether to go or not go. This was something completely different. Honestly, i just, you know, what the heck, lets gain some life experience!
I did this one mistake in the past and that is, not taking the chance when theres one right in front of me. For instance, i changed schools 5 times, and during Form 4&5 i was in a new school, it was so hard to find my place in my new school, to feel belonging, in group discussions, id be the quiet one, even if i had something to say, id shut nah it wont matter they're better than me, my thoughts are dumb, I was so uncomfortable with saying something publicly. I came to realize that, im the problem, im the one giving myself such a hard time. So in form 5, i started doing things, taking chances whenever i could, if i could dance on stage, i went for it. Slam poetry? won. And i was so much happier and confident with myself.
This is what made me become pinkdurian. 

So when i saw this, i just said to myself, i might learn something from this. So at 3.45 i left the house, drove all the way to Hatta Dolmat Couture, Shah Alam. And when i parked my car, i literally felt like I DONT WANT TO DO THIS OMG SHOULD I GO BACK HOME? and when i saw other girls passing....Lagi lah insecureeeee! In the end, i found my chill.

Entering the shop, there were filled with around 40 girls! not even including the 36 shortlisted ones! Just smiled and registered etc. I was reading the benefits of being the face of HattaHijab and the terms and conditions, that was when i knew, this is not for me and also i didnt feel like wanting change to hattahijab_pinkdurian, hope they'll take hattahijab_anisah instead haha. I mean, i cant do all this! They need someone with a whole lot of experience in the industry! I really felt like i was going to make a fool out of myself haha.

But i dont want to be a quitter, there were so many confident girls around me! All i felt was, why cant i just be them, having the strong urge to atleast try, all confident & fierce, why cant i.......ACTUALLY I CAN. I CAN BE. If i prove to myself i can go through this, thats good enough for me. Just have fun! I told myself.

They interviewed 4 girls at once, 4 judges, @hattadolamt_ himself, @Veliciousvass from Instyle Mag, @didiyanaehsan Hijab Stylist & @Izaiskandar a Model. All the judges were so down to earth and humorous and very hungry at the time! All nibblin on Dominos. Which actually toned down the anxious environment, kinda felt we were all chilling for a second there.

 I decided to speak in english because i felt more comfortable. The girl beside me, she owned the interview mann, and to be standing next to her, gave me elephants in my stomach, not butterflies k. She was actually the first person they announced for TOP 12! I was so blank, so nervous, reminding myself to breathe, i didn't even mention that i was blogger. I kinda mumbled alot.

They asked: why do you want to be the face of HattaHijab?
I replied: I just want to give confidence to people, it is true that if you have beauty you have confidence, but i want to radiate confidence so that other people would feel like, they're confident without beauty and thats what is important! Yeah imagine that with x100 speed,mumbles,stutters and umm um umms.
Velicious came in a said your posture, your slouched shoulder dosent show confidence but when you speak, yes i can hear confidence.
(which is true....ill work on that)

I also told them my idol is Dina Tokio! hehe. Then we had to style a hijab in 2 minutes, i sucked at this, i suck at styling without youtube's guidance, in the end, i decided to take this bright mustard yellow that looked like its not the first thing anybody would lay their eyes on. Also, yellow is my favourite colour anyway. Because i was so bad it, let's see if HattaHijab does the job for me, cant play with style, lets play with colours.

Judges asked: Why did you take this?
I replied: hmm i don't think people will reach for this colour, maybe its too bright, but basically i want to show people that you can actually wear anything and be confident in it.


To know you did your best: Just be honest, and be yourself, even if in a nervous state, try your absolute best to say what comes to mind. Let the 100% you shine (mutters, stumbles, shakey included)
The End

I DID THE INTERVIEW. IM NOT GOING TO BE CHOSEN BUT WHATEVER I WENT THROUGH WITH ITTTT YAAAAAY! I even told my mum confidently, Ma i am absolutely sure i didnt get it, there were so many other beautiful & talented girls, but i went through it and im so proud of myself! I know whats my flaws and ill improve on them. 

2dayslater....
Around 11pm, I was in my room, just lying down, editing my photos. Tingg! you've been tagged in a photo. Opened it up, What. WHAAAAAAAAAAAA.
Omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg.
This happened. My nervous face popped up. omg times a gazillion.


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This was so unexpected. I ran to my mum straight to tell her the news. And after that had to sing me some taylor just to calm me a little. I am prepared to LEARN what i can, do the best within my capabilities and be true to myself, always. Thank you to all the judges, the Hatta Dolmat team and Hatta himself for giving me the opportunity, for seeing something in me. This will be an unforgettable experience for me. From the bottom of my heart, I truly appreciate it.

 In the end i thought, take every chance you get in a life, because some things only happen once.
and
Alhamdulillah.